Anniversary Pt 2
Pick up... Off to Rockaway Townsquare. The mall where we met.
I set up a Cinnabon, Cinnastick, Steamed Apple Cider and Caramel Machiatto breakfast in the food court as close to the original table as I could since the original table was occupied. I also had his gifts all ready. He wore the same exact outfit; I wore the closest as I could come to the outfit cuz I can't find the tank and blouse I originally wore...
He came, opened his Music Pimp Tee-Shirt, Clerks X DVD, Binder and Number 1 Boyfriend Award. I had already given him his Memory Foam mattress pad 2 weeks prior. I still have his mix-CD in my spindle which I forgot to give to him... hehe
We ate our breakfasts and walked around the mall... did a wee bit of shopping... I got a pair of cargos, a teeshirt, a bra and a pretty hairclip. He got 2 teeshirts.
Did more walkin around. Spent some time on one of "our benches"... :)
After, we went to Borders Books & Music to browse through some stuff... I saw a really adorable relationship book that I might consider getting for me and Ry.
Then! It was off to Ryan's house for a quick 30 min - hour of cuddle time. We made our way to Chun Bo's (first restaurant) and we ate our foodish... I got different food than the first time cuz I was craving different food. hehe-
Went back to Ryan's house to do a little more cuddling, movie watchin... I got my gifts as well... :)
More pages for my binder and pictures... a personalized picture frame (hehe.. which i LOVE!)... I got an Easter/Spring themed Pooh Bear earlier that day @ the mall... He got me Flower from the Bambi movie... A Baby Panda... The Jersey Girl DVD... 2 Dozen GORGEOUS roses which are now drying in my room... and a beautiful vase to match (Thank you so much sweetie)
Now, for coincidences!
We both thought of spending the day at the mall...
Getting strawberries and chocolate dip was an idea we both ended up having but didn't go through
We both used the same concept for wrapping paper
As far as my favorite Bambi character, he just KNEW to get Flower... :)
lol - He was going to get me the same Anniversary card that I got him...
I was going to get him the same picture frame he got me...
lol... There were thought coincidences and other stuffs... it's baffling, amazing and endearing.
Afterwards, we spent the night cuddling and hugging and snuggling until it was time for me to get my butt back to the dorm... And so it was.
..... Personal thoughts of mine?
Our anniversary and all the love that just poured out from everywhere was something I really ... needed.
It feels like I felt a year ago when he and I just met.
Butterflies in the stomach... warm flowing gushiness in my tummy... not being able to wait to see him again... thinking about him more than every second of the day... craving to get a hug and a kiss... Being so incredibally in love with him...
I'm also pretty scared of the future... of maybe things not going as well as they've gone... about not knowing what to do if anything happened... Just things like that... The nightmare I had last night didn't help very much... And whenever I think about all of it, I get this lump in my throat and my eyes get watery and I don't feel so well anymore.
I don't know. =P Yeah. There's that bad feeling again...
But anyhoo...
It's been such an amazing anniversary; and I miss him so much right now...
I remember when we first started goin out, I'd see him like 3 times a week... we'd goto a mall or movie (occassionally) and then out to get food... All I had to do was ask. Now it's beg, plead, threaten to hold someone hostage or kill em... and still no game. BAH! lol-
Yeah. A year later, I still love him more than words could ever express... and he still makes me smile like a doofus and he's still the only one to make me giggle like a little kid... and he's the only one to make butterflies flip out in my stomach when he kisses me and when he holds me and cuddles with me... He makes me feel complete when he holds me and we're lying around and I'm lying on his arm and he's got his arms and legs around me... Some things about the 'beginning' of our relationship, I miss a lot. I wasn't as afraid then as I was now... which is ironic. Maybe I'll have to figure out how to make this work out... cuz I didn't fear anything then. I knew he was mine to hold and love and care for and never doubted that. Now, I'm scared a lot. heh - I dunno. Bleh. Tearin up. lol-
It's just been such a crazy year with him... Good and bad memories... Made us stronger, thicker, greater, sometimes weaker but usually not for long... but all the same, if I had to do it all over again - I'd change some things but not really.
What can I say?
I love him so much...
There are things I feel for him that I could never express in words...
There and things I hope to do with him and memories I hope to share with him...
There are so many thoughts and things I want to say and tell him and ask him but just haven't...
Head over heels in love with a certain Ryan French... God only knows how much.
lol... before I went to bed last night, well - not RIGHT before I went to sleep cuz I think I was thinking bad thoughts before I fell asleep explaining why I had such a HORRIBLE nightmare but hey, no one cares do they?... but I went through my entire binder again and it was like... I actually teared up a formidable amount. I really did. hehe... I'm a goober.
But yeah...
Our anniversary and just all the emotion he gave me...
For most of the day made me feel like I had nothing to be afraid of...
It was so warm and relieving and revitalizing... Like a breath of air was breathed back into my body.
Ryan French, I love you.
I really do... Like really really.
And I always will.
You've got my heart, mind, body, soul and every single living bit of me...
Faithfully, Honestly, Truthfully, Sincerely, Forever... I'm yours.
Goodnight everyone~
I set up a Cinnabon, Cinnastick, Steamed Apple Cider and Caramel Machiatto breakfast in the food court as close to the original table as I could since the original table was occupied. I also had his gifts all ready. He wore the same exact outfit; I wore the closest as I could come to the outfit cuz I can't find the tank and blouse I originally wore...
He came, opened his Music Pimp Tee-Shirt, Clerks X DVD, Binder and Number 1 Boyfriend Award. I had already given him his Memory Foam mattress pad 2 weeks prior. I still have his mix-CD in my spindle which I forgot to give to him... hehe
We ate our breakfasts and walked around the mall... did a wee bit of shopping... I got a pair of cargos, a teeshirt, a bra and a pretty hairclip. He got 2 teeshirts.
Did more walkin around. Spent some time on one of "our benches"... :)
After, we went to Borders Books & Music to browse through some stuff... I saw a really adorable relationship book that I might consider getting for me and Ry.
Then! It was off to Ryan's house for a quick 30 min - hour of cuddle time. We made our way to Chun Bo's (first restaurant) and we ate our foodish... I got different food than the first time cuz I was craving different food. hehe-
Went back to Ryan's house to do a little more cuddling, movie watchin... I got my gifts as well... :)
More pages for my binder and pictures... a personalized picture frame (hehe.. which i LOVE!)... I got an Easter/Spring themed Pooh Bear earlier that day @ the mall... He got me Flower from the Bambi movie... A Baby Panda... The Jersey Girl DVD... 2 Dozen GORGEOUS roses which are now drying in my room... and a beautiful vase to match (Thank you so much sweetie)
Now, for coincidences!
We both thought of spending the day at the mall...
Getting strawberries and chocolate dip was an idea we both ended up having but didn't go through
We both used the same concept for wrapping paper
As far as my favorite Bambi character, he just KNEW to get Flower... :)
lol - He was going to get me the same Anniversary card that I got him...
I was going to get him the same picture frame he got me...
lol... There were thought coincidences and other stuffs... it's baffling, amazing and endearing.
Afterwards, we spent the night cuddling and hugging and snuggling until it was time for me to get my butt back to the dorm... And so it was.
..... Personal thoughts of mine?
Our anniversary and all the love that just poured out from everywhere was something I really ... needed.
It feels like I felt a year ago when he and I just met.
Butterflies in the stomach... warm flowing gushiness in my tummy... not being able to wait to see him again... thinking about him more than every second of the day... craving to get a hug and a kiss... Being so incredibally in love with him...
I'm also pretty scared of the future... of maybe things not going as well as they've gone... about not knowing what to do if anything happened... Just things like that... The nightmare I had last night didn't help very much... And whenever I think about all of it, I get this lump in my throat and my eyes get watery and I don't feel so well anymore.
I don't know. =P Yeah. There's that bad feeling again...
But anyhoo...
It's been such an amazing anniversary; and I miss him so much right now...
I remember when we first started goin out, I'd see him like 3 times a week... we'd goto a mall or movie (occassionally) and then out to get food... All I had to do was ask. Now it's beg, plead, threaten to hold someone hostage or kill em... and still no game. BAH! lol-
Yeah. A year later, I still love him more than words could ever express... and he still makes me smile like a doofus and he's still the only one to make me giggle like a little kid... and he's the only one to make butterflies flip out in my stomach when he kisses me and when he holds me and cuddles with me... He makes me feel complete when he holds me and we're lying around and I'm lying on his arm and he's got his arms and legs around me... Some things about the 'beginning' of our relationship, I miss a lot. I wasn't as afraid then as I was now... which is ironic. Maybe I'll have to figure out how to make this work out... cuz I didn't fear anything then. I knew he was mine to hold and love and care for and never doubted that. Now, I'm scared a lot. heh - I dunno. Bleh. Tearin up. lol-
It's just been such a crazy year with him... Good and bad memories... Made us stronger, thicker, greater, sometimes weaker but usually not for long... but all the same, if I had to do it all over again - I'd change some things but not really.
What can I say?
I love him so much...
There are things I feel for him that I could never express in words...
There and things I hope to do with him and memories I hope to share with him...
There are so many thoughts and things I want to say and tell him and ask him but just haven't...
Head over heels in love with a certain Ryan French... God only knows how much.
lol... before I went to bed last night, well - not RIGHT before I went to sleep cuz I think I was thinking bad thoughts before I fell asleep explaining why I had such a HORRIBLE nightmare but hey, no one cares do they?... but I went through my entire binder again and it was like... I actually teared up a formidable amount. I really did. hehe... I'm a goober.
But yeah...
Our anniversary and just all the emotion he gave me...
For most of the day made me feel like I had nothing to be afraid of...
It was so warm and relieving and revitalizing... Like a breath of air was breathed back into my body.
Ryan French, I love you.
I really do... Like really really.
And I always will.
You've got my heart, mind, body, soul and every single living bit of me...
Faithfully, Honestly, Truthfully, Sincerely, Forever... I'm yours.
Goodnight everyone~
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